Can you believe that spotify nor netflix are available in my country? like how in the actual hell  I am supposed to live. Much dramatic? yeah I know.

But anyways, today I wanted to share a glimpse of my music taste with you my dear readers, which consists of three genres: alternative, rock and pop? (does Melanie's music count as pop?)

So here's a list of my top 20 songs:

Dance, Dance.

Fall out boy

Lane Boy

Twenty øne Piløts

Mad Hatter

Melanie Martinez a.k.a: QUEEEEN!

 I write sins not tragedies

Panic! at the disco

Undead

Teenagers
Welcome to the black parade
The sharpest lives

My chemical romance

P.S: sorry couldn't choose one.

Milk and Cookies

Melanie Martinez

The death of a bachelor

Panic! at the disco

Psycho

Muse

Teen Idle

Marina and the diamonds

Numb

Linkin Park

Last damn night

Elle king

We don't have to dance

Andy black

Fairly local

Twenty øne Piløts

Fools 

Troye Sivan

Castle

Halsey

Ignorance

New Americana

Halsey

 Now

Paramore

Wild

Troye Sivan








P.S: Please don't be angry that I didn't choose your favorite artist or did not put him/her in the top 3 because it was as hard as choosing between your children, I litterally put mcr at 18 before.

It's been exactly one month since I last posted, pls don't thrown your laptops and phones at me although it might be great if I catch a few *wink* *wink*

Anyways GOOD NEWS EVERYONE (yes that was a futurama reference) I finally fixed my laptop with little money I collected from my older brother and aunts and it's finally good as new... well there's still some problems like the charger but who cares? I do

I wanted to try a thing cutiepiemarzia did which is monthly notes.

although I will change the name each month to suit it ;-)

it's when you plan things to do this month not your whole day but just new things you wanted to try or necessary ones that needs to be done like spring cleaning (which I never do)

So I thought hey! maybe I can do that too.

and WARNING I'm not stealing her idea I'm just experiencing.

• Finish my everlasting story

So for this month April it's really rainy these days since it's the awkward time as I call it.

and what's good when it's cold ? curl up with a good book, what's even better? write your own book.

so I've decided to finish my story which I've procastinating to write since... well I don't remember.

• Learn sign language

A story I've read about a barista who learned sign language just to serve a deaf old man made me go all emotional except for the tears and I've decided to learn sign language, maybe it'll be useful sometimes

• Watch starwars

Okay starwars fans don't kill me but I've never EVER watched starwars, it's not that I think it's bad or something it's just that I am more of a wizard (raise your wands people!) but I promise to watch it, pinky promise. Wait for a post that says IT IS OFFICAL PEOPLE I LOVE STAR WARS

So that was all, if you have any ideas on what to do next month pwease tell me, I'm running low here.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

                                                                                                                          Dee

                                      

                                                                              Par Dee

I know I know, exams have finished and I still haven't posted but anyways, I was having those deep relaxing moments (you dirty dirty minded people) I don't mean it like that, you know when you go for a walk alone or a visit to a park and you stare at something while thinking about different things.

Well while looking at some children running I thought about those friends I used to play hide and seek with but now are stuck up bi*ches who don't even acknowledge me.

As people grow up they intend to think they need to be extra mature and stop acting like 'children', I agree that childish acting can harm socially but you're 14 for Allah's sake you don't have to start wearing makeup, wear high-heels or wear something shorter than you would like.You don't have to be ashamed to run, or shout, or act weird infront of people.

I have a few rules I follow in my life: these might help you if you stress out on being mature and your behavior.

• Live your life to its fullest and never say I 'm too old for this.

• Don't be afraid to be yourself

• Do what makes you happy 

• and last but not least, screw what people think

 they only judge you because you're actually different and not just another copy of them

Now what can I say if you had these type of friends and they judge you now then you should ignore them and focus on what makes you happy.

And if you're really excited about being an adult, please take a moment and think if you really want that because you'll regret every single moment you spent gossiping when you could've ... I don't know watched spongebob or played stardoll.

I might have changed the subject a bit but that's the problem with me I try to write all my thoughts without changing the subject but end up in an another world.

                                                                                                              Dee

Before you attack me about me absence, I wanna reason myself for not posting on my blog nor on my channel, first of all exams are coming this week so I'm trying to put more effort in my studies this semester, and second we had this stupid French project, which was basically a video in which we talk about racism, after all this happened I felt bad for not posting so I decided to do a quick and pray to not lose my followers.

So today I wanted to show you this ootd which is more grunge than cute , more like my style.

so I've not been posting, it's because we have a stupid French project in which we need to make a video.

 you may think like "oh yeah that's so easy" yeah so easy especially when you work with people that don't know how to work in a group (notice the sarcasm?) with the stress of the exams' date is approaching, we finally made the video.

 I was satisfied only the sound was a bit rubbish because of my crappy laptop, I already explained to them that the sound might come out really bad, and they were kind of okay with it.

 but then my friend presented hers and it was amazing, so they blamed my laptop, I mean yeah it was bad but don't go pointing your fingers at me if I did most of the work, if I wrote and printed the whole project, if I did whatever pleased you, while you only had to record your voice without even syncing it with the actual video! 

but anyways I wanted to get something off my chest and this blog is my only escape.

if you have something you're angry about please tell me in the comments I promise I will read every single one :) 

                                                             Byeeeeeeeeeee

                                                                                                Dee                      

If you're a Melanie Martinez's fan then you could recognize this album, yep I fell in love with it as soon as I listened to it, and guess what I'm listening to right now,okay maybe I'm a little obsessed, this song (crybaby) reminded me of how I cry easily,like any word can hurt me like hell because words hurt more than physical harming because they sting especially if they're true like the word fat is beyond rude to say, I just get disgusted when people can say it easily like its nothing while I'm on the other side laught it off but it still hurts, guess what happens after they leave, yep I touch my face to find it wet.

the problem with my tears that if they're already coming out than there will be no way to stop them and the worse thing that you can't hide them because they come out like river.

 last time I cried when I was called to the principal's office for litterally not paying attention to what the manager said like WTF, call me a crybaby but I cried like there's no tomorrow, I still didn't say sorry ha! in your face rude 'too faced' manager (get it too faced? too much makeup? okay I will go) .

So tell me do you cry easily like me or you can hold the tears if you can please teach me pleaseeeeeeeee.

                                                                               Dee