Par Dee

I know I know, exams have finished and I still haven't posted but anyways, I was having those deep relaxing moments (you dirty dirty minded people) I don't mean it like that, you know when you go for a walk alone or a visit to a park and you stare at something while thinking about different things.

Well while looking at some children running I thought about those friends I used to play hide and seek with but now are stuck up bi*ches who don't even acknowledge me.

As people grow up they intend to think they need to be extra mature and stop acting like 'children', I agree that childish acting can harm socially but you're 14 for Allah's sake you don't have to start wearing makeup, wear high-heels or wear something shorter than you would like.You don't have to be ashamed to run, or shout, or act weird infront of people.

I have a few rules I follow in my life: these might help you if you stress out on being mature and your behavior.

• Live your life to its fullest and never say I 'm too old for this.

• Don't be afraid to be yourself

• Do what makes you happy 

• and last but not least, screw what people think

 they only judge you because you're actually different and not just another copy of them

Now what can I say if you had these type of friends and they judge you now then you should ignore them and focus on what makes you happy.

And if you're really excited about being an adult, please take a moment and think if you really want that because you'll regret every single moment you spent gossiping when you could've ... I don't know watched spongebob or played stardoll.

I might have changed the subject a bit but that's the problem with me I try to write all my thoughts without changing the subject but end up in an another world.

                                                                                                              Dee

Before you attack me about me absence, I wanna reason myself for not posting on my blog nor on my channel, first of all exams are coming this week so I'm trying to put more effort in my studies this semester, and second we had this stupid French project, which was basically a video in which we talk about racism, after all this happened I felt bad for not posting so I decided to do a quick and pray to not lose my followers.

So today I wanted to show you this ootd which is more grunge than cute , more like my style.

so I've not been posting, it's because we have a stupid French project in which we need to make a video.

 you may think like "oh yeah that's so easy" yeah so easy especially when you work with people that don't know how to work in a group (notice the sarcasm?) with the stress of the exams' date is approaching, we finally made the video.

 I was satisfied only the sound was a bit rubbish because of my crappy laptop, I already explained to them that the sound might come out really bad, and they were kind of okay with it.

 but then my friend presented hers and it was amazing, so they blamed my laptop, I mean yeah it was bad but don't go pointing your fingers at me if I did most of the work, if I wrote and printed the whole project, if I did whatever pleased you, while you only had to record your voice without even syncing it with the actual video! 

but anyways I wanted to get something off my chest and this blog is my only escape.

if you have something you're angry about please tell me in the comments I promise I will read every single one :) 

                                                             Byeeeeeeeeeee

                                                                                                Dee                      

If you're a Melanie Martinez's fan then you could recognize this album, yep I fell in love with it as soon as I listened to it, and guess what I'm listening to right now,okay maybe I'm a little obsessed, this song (crybaby) reminded me of how I cry easily,like any word can hurt me like hell because words hurt more than physical harming because they sting especially if they're true like the word fat is beyond rude to say, I just get disgusted when people can say it easily like its nothing while I'm on the other side laught it off but it still hurts, guess what happens after they leave, yep I touch my face to find it wet.

the problem with my tears that if they're already coming out than there will be no way to stop them and the worse thing that you can't hide them because they come out like river.

 last time I cried when I was called to the principal's office for litterally not paying attention to what the manager said like WTF, call me a crybaby but I cried like there's no tomorrow, I still didn't say sorry ha! in your face rude 'too faced' manager (get it too faced? too much makeup? okay I will go) .

So tell me do you cry easily like me or you can hold the tears if you can please teach me pleaseeeeeeeee.

                                                                               Dee

So, you may know (if you have a blog or you read blogs) that blogs these days look like magazines or something close to that, I tried to search free blogger templates and downloaded a few.

When it was time to edit them si I can delete unwanted sections like 'restaurant' and 'shop' but the freakin' html service kept saying error error.

 And I was like "***************!!!!!" , anyways I went to search another template, a simple one, maybe a bit like  the original blogger template, and here we go I'm back to the original template.
 And about the magazine-wanna-be template than I'd like to say "******************!!!" since I spent all night trying to figure what the hell I am doing.

I'll probably never use a fancy template well if this blog becomes famous or something then I'll probably try it.

And for you little readers that came from the future please don't fill my comments with " it's funny that you're using the exact same template right now ha ha ha" that if blogger  still exists.

 but anyways if you're a blogger have you faced problems with templates? if you have then make sure to comment the problem so we can create a campaign against stupid templates and I'll see you guys in the next post. Byeeeeeee